emo second entry



Open armskote, take over, issue arms, receive arms, paperwork'ssss, get scolded, get f*** and got punish by our white mazda devil, clean weapons, maintain weapons... doing the same stuff over and over again for 5-6 days a week!!! It's so BORING & STRESSFUL with all the checks & stuffs.

Why am i there where i could be an artist in MDC acting, singing & dancing away with my dancing feet.. Passes the first audition but failed the second last year becuz of my stupid Pes B and my unit!!!

Dance is what i do.. I wanna be performer, being a professional in acting/singing & in dance especially.. I know that i didn't really score for my singing & acting, but i'll train, do and hit everything with my best shot. I don't mind all the tough training and challenges that i gotta go through training my ass off, cuz what i'll be heading for is what i really wanna achevied and pursure on in the near future.. and in fact i love it!! Well.. then to be tortured by my beloved superious..

Really regret that i didn't keng and downgrade my Pes during my 1st year of National Service. With an OC that's hypocrite and a CSM that's weird, bias, and never satisfied with our job..

Can my life get any better? 6plus more months to ORD.. Will MDC still accept me? Can MDC please drag and pull me in i begged.. Sigh..

emo first entry

emo first entry



The winds knocks on the window over the room as small as me..
Twiling stars filing the room with love..
Telling me don't be hurt caressing my wound so gently embracing me to sleep..
Too hurt for my legs to walk, eyes so blurry with tears..
Before love never meant for me..
I will keep smiling if it's short like those stars embroidered in my eyes..
I will love you forever..